Lesson Learned
Mood:  cool
Is the phrase 'in God's time' used to make you feel better whenever things are not going the way you expected them to be? What if those very things you were praying for never came at all, does the concept if God's time still count? Is that the time when you can safely say that he has better plans? And if something comes up which has nothing to do with the thing you previously expected, is that his better plan? How can you say it is better when the fact is they sprang from different contexts? Is the phrase 'God knows the desires in your heart' valid in that case?


Out in the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole
I thank whataver gods maybe
For my unconquerable soul

In the full clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed

It matters not how straight the gate,
How charged with punishment the scroll
I am the captain of my fate,
I am the master of my soul

Sylvia Crashed
Mood:  crushed out
yeah, my PC crashed. budz is here in our house to lend me his laptop.

the thing is, I HAD TO START my magazine layout for Communication Research 125 all over again...

snd I can't get my printer to work with Compee, his laptop.

Hurrah!

Not so good.
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Piano in thew Dark by Nina
I feel really bad today. Opened up my mail and read something.

The deal is this... I was supposed to attend our Executive Committee meeting for UP Haring Ibon. Unfortunately, I was not able to. (I actually thought that I could make it despite the fact that I am not allowed to go out when I don't have any classes).

Another misfortune happened when I realized that some people were expecting me to be with them today. The deal is, I have no plans of doing that... my original gameplan was to spend time with them and hit off another destination. But this doesn't mean that I am off my responsibilities. I actually had plans on my mind already. I was even planning on handling stuff myself.

I blame myself for not telling them. Another (unfortunate) case of miscommunication. I just feel bad. It seemed like I left all my responsibilities on hold for today...

... I guess I actually did but not deliberately as some might suggest.

Hectic Week
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Freestyler by Bombfunk MCs
Was mad at John for not bringing my registration materials last Monday. Doing prerogs almost made me crap inside my pants!

Was truly sorry for acting really stupid. Went really mad. Im just glad everything is over.

Hope John makes it in his interview for Globe tomorrow.


First days are always tiring. Whew. Got to plan my sem early. I have my acads, orgs, and the CMC student council to balance... not to mention friends and er... myself.

Mom and My Best Bud
Mood:  energetic
John went and bought a cake for my mom... It is always good to know that the people that both matter to you get along well. The only thing is I think my dad dislikes him for reasons that I can't say. Let us just say his malicious mind will get him no where...

Mom's leaving tomorrow. She'll be back to UAE to earn money so that we can go through school. (Same story with most people here in the Philippines). I sure am going to miss her. *sigh*

Count Your Blessings... Be Happy... PDA
Now Playing: Piano in the Dark by Nina
My mom on the PDA that I was promised to me by my aunt last January:

"Anak, wag ka nang magpabili ng PDA sa tita mo..."

Later that afternoon... from a friend:

"Oi, tignan mo ito..." *shows his new PDA*

That moment, I remembered how I was the one who influenced him to buy a PDA so that we can work well with our paperwork for next semester with them.

Count your blessings, that is what they say (been actually telling myself that over and over again). But everytime, disappointment takes it toll. Like a constant struggle for good and evil in most novels and movies, I have been fighting this feeling since yesterday. I keep on telling myself that I can't have everything that I want and that I should be happy for having my own mp3 player/recorder/flash drive (named Cheekee) and my new PC (named Sylvia). Yes, I am glad for them but I just can't help to be disappointed because I was told I will be having a PDA. I've anticipated it for a long time now... once more, I am reminded that events come unexpectedly unexpected. I was just so looking forward to the PDA because I have lived three years of college with one--it was just last year that I didn't have one because my old one got broken for some weird reason. It's just that I know the feeling of living with one and sometimes, it occurs to me how life could be easier if my PDA was still with me.

We just can't afford a new one right now, I guess.

...advanced happy birthday to me. ahahahaha

Bataan Vacation and Student Council Sem Planning
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Usahay by South Border
Topic: New

I had a great weekend.

I had the time of my life once more--this time it was with my family and my best bud. We went to Bataan just in time for the fiesta. Had lots of great moments there.

Then I headed to Pia's place for the CMC Student Council semplanning (better late than never). Also had a great time there. All's set for us this sem!

Pahiyas (Part 2)
Mood:  hug me
Topic: Spill
Sometimes friendships make it, sometimes they don't. Sometimes an event can be that bad that you just want pull yourself inside your shell (my horoscope is Cancer, just so you know).

Some things can't be put back the way they were.

Got a call from Migs two days ago. Missed my odder barkada. I haven't been with them for quite some time now. *sigh*

Pahiyas Festival 2005 (Part 1)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Club Music (don't know the title)
Topic: special
I had the time of my life last Saturday. Met Malor and Cathy in front of the town's church. After that, I pigged out with Cathy with Lucban's Hardinera and some Buko Pandan.

Then we headed so Cafe. San Luis to drink chilled lambanog. We met up with some of Malor's high school mates, Roy, Gary, Stars, CJ and the others. Drank our hearts out 'til midnight. It seemed like Some backed out early while Cathy and I remained as the survivors. It was also on that cafe that Malor and I proved that Cathy is a certified bangus (matinik) when it comes to guys. I actually witnessed a guy hit on her. How's that?

At the middle of our merrymaking, I was badly wishing that my best bud was there to be with us. (Though, I can't say he'll enjoy the company of alcohol. Told myself we could have walked and talked our way the entire night there.) Got a call from him and said his hellos so Malor and Cathy. We also made a plan of going to Galera this coming weekend with his brother.

After our drinking spree (how I wished I was drunk),we went for a walk around the town. We took pictures of almost every house that catches our attention. It felt different when you are with a whole new set of people when you are there in Lucban. They were not the usual relatives that I have. Not that I didn't want to be with my relatives, what I know is that being with a whole new company felt different.

We headed to a lugawan afterwards. It was the best lugaw ever. Probably it was because of the company... I was having the best time of my life.

It was too late to go back to our barrio, so I had to sleep in Malor's place. I had breakfast and helped Malor decorate their place with rambutan/lychee-like fruits called lagwan (hope I got it correctly). Too bad I had to head to Manila that afternoon.

I was looking forward to sharing this happy experience to my best bud. Didn't expect him to just ignore it like that... *sigh*

YM Doodle with Andre
Mood:  happy
Topic: photoblog

Olats. May isang taong bastos kaninang umaga. Was really pissed off. Of all people, didn't expect that to come from him.

Pero ok na. hehe. What are best buds for anyway.

Was very busy lately. Been a while since I last used the net as my pasttime. Some proof of my return: